08/27/2009

Weak

I caved.  On something I promised myself I wouldn't cave on.  And it caused me to cave on multiple other areas of my life where I had a tiny amount of control.  

Why does that happen?  Why do we sit around and say: "No matter what..."  only to just let ourselves down.  I even journaled about it right before I caved.  I knew what I was going to do.  ARGGGGGH.

I text her.  Even after everything.  Fuck.

And then, I ordered pizza.  Instead of going to the gym.  Great.  Wonderful.

On the bright side, I am meeting with Cori in the morning.  I will be going to play with my pony.  I have a ton of stuff to do around the house.  And mom gets here on Saturday.  

Tomorrow is a new day, with no mistakes in it.

Aug 27, 2009 10:05:03 PM

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